I have a fear of disappointment. I'm not worried about being disappointed; its more that I am worried about disappointing others. It seems like every assignment I turn in isn't good enough no matter what grade I receive. I am constantly thinking over how to handle situations so that I won't upset anyone or change their opinion of me. I think this bothers me because I view disappointment as a form of failure on my part.
I didn't obtain this fear from any situations with family members. My parents and sisters have always been super supportive of me and are always sure to tell me how proud they are. I have this fear because of standards I set up for myself. I have to do everything perfect or its not good enough and I view myself as a disappointment. I also end up for apologising for a lot of things that are either out of my control or not a big deal. If I could stop worrying about disappointing people -- friends, teachers, myself -- I would probably be a much more relaxed person.
You don't disappoint anyone. I promise. You're great and beautiful and funny. It's not bad to set standards for yourself, just don't set unrealistic ones.
ReplyDeleteI agree with a lot of what you say Emily!!! Well I have kinda given up with the fact that I don't really care too much about the grades haha but like I hate it when people are disappointed in me or mad so I always cave in and say sorry for really not even doing anything. But you should be proud of yourself! You are amazing and should not be disappointed with anything you do!
ReplyDeleteI can definitely relate to the part where you say, "I also end up for apologizing for a lot of things that are either out of my control or not a big deal." because I often end up saying sorry for things that I can really control. Also, I agree with ellie! Because, well just from being with you in AP Comp your papers are REALLY good and I think you're super smart. :) And I always admire how pretty you look everyday! Well, and heather too.
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